Why always compare me with others?
Why act as though you own me?
Am almost 18 aren’t I old enough to be me?
Why do you prefer others to me?
Why recall what I regret doing?
Why make me feel unsafe in my own home?
Why make me feel the need to run away?
Why did you make me hate you this way?
Why do I feel better and happy when you’re not around?
Why don’t you appreciate me?
Why make me hate you every day?
Why do you push us away?
Why do you hate me this way?
Why always threaten me?
These are the questions I ask myself each time am depressed, sadly am always depressed. You’ve made me an enemy, have never been close to you never felt your love or any of those shit, even a fucking hug I ain’t gotten from you. Each time I see you play with those kids it pains me because you never played with me like that or at all. I always felt that you didn’t want me.
What do fathers love feel like?To my father:
Why always compare me with others?
Why act as though you own me?
Am almost 18 aren’t I old enough to be me?
Why do you prefer others to me?
Why recall what I regret doing?
Why make me feel unsafe in my own home?
Why make me feel the need to run away?
Why did you make me hate you this way?
Why do I feel better and happy when you’re not around?
Why don’t you appreciate me?
Why make me hate you every day?
Why do you push us away?
Why do you hate me this way?
Why always threaten me?
These are the questions I ask myself each time am depressed, sadly am always depressed. You’ve made me an enemy, have never been close to you never felt your love or any of those shit, even a fucking hug I ain’t gotten from you. Each time I see you play with those kids it pains me because you never played with me like that or at all. I always felt that you didn’t want me.
What do fathers love feel like?
Truth hurts 🤕 
I also need these answers. Thank you for this post. It feels relatable. 😊
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Thanks😢
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Hugs…you will find them. Sometimes we find what we are looking for in ourselves with the help of a great big God.
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Well said
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I too got nothing positive from my father. He wanted sons. I was the 4th girl! He did nothing but chastise me.I think it affected my choice in husbands. I wish I had had therapy. Can you get that? Best of luck. Cheers.
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I do need it… Someday I will
Am sorry. I can relate
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Uff…Father’s nature is careful for you.don’t try to revolt.After some years,when you will fully grow up,all boudries are breaking slowly slowly.stay safe,my dear!!bless you.🌹🤗🌹
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Thanks for your words
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