It’s difficult finding someone who really treats you like you matter, I’m tired of feeling the need to fill this massive void of loneliness with someone’s affection and care. I can’t seem to find what I’m looking for, feels like I’m a lost cause. I’m lost in both worlds at the same time suffering from addictions. How can I stop what makes me feel like me? These addictions somewhat help to keep me as ease(floating). Most times it feels like I’m running out of time but In reality my times already started, the constant pressure, thinking and rapid moods wings makes me feel like a burden is placed on my shoulder and on my mind constantly thinking will I make it out at all? Part of me is already gone. This has always been me secretly getting tired of “something’s” and still convincing myself I need those things. What i want I never got, what I got I never thought of wanting it then again, What I crave for I got but why isn’t it enough for me? My life is like a Pandora’s box I can’t seem to figure it out.
Truth hurts 🤕 