it is a feeling of belonging you get from being around people that actually wants you around, people that make you feel happy and alive. Today my friends really made my day, we didn’t actually go any where at al, we where seated at a table and had lots of conversation and mocked each other joke fully, some got annoyed but still laughed, that the power of friendship. Although we aren’t that close I still feel apart of their inner circle, there family and am grateful for that. Being in the university is not as easy as one thinks, yes there’s freedom but any choice you make will definitely affect you in the nearest future.
My first university love made me question the reality love and existence of emotions and when we “broke up” I din’t feel hurt because i was used to getting hurt by her and that’s no different from the sienro. I didn’t realize in time that when she left, she took away my only source of happiness and after something i became this person who was sad, angry, hateful and wanted to be all alone, that changed me, until yesterday, I finally got the courage to stop a random girl and talked to her, that rush of pain that goes directly to my chest and and feeling of a compliment when she gives me her number, that I missed and that brought me back to life. Before then I always told myself that I was the problem, I couldn’t just start a whole new relationship with someone new, the stress and all that, but that was a lie I told myself than accepting the fact I lost courage or “mojo”.
