Lonely

I have to let you go

I wonder if you ever look back and miss me

Well that’s a lie

Read our old chats and smile

I have to let you go

I don’t want to feel love or want companion

I want to be empty

It hurts to see myself going through the same loop over and over again

I know how these plays out

Do I not care?

Do I care?

Do I stay and see it through or should I just leave and save myself the pain?

How can I turn off these emotions?

I care to much

I’m gullible and prone to destruction

Why can’t I love myself and be enough for myself?

Why do I let people in: being alone is lonely and alone I don’t want to feel lonely

I keep plotting over myself

I need help!

Please.

Sincerely,

West💔