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Confused

Trapped in a parallel universe

Had an encounter with the person I’ve always wanted to be, but observed from a distance

I can’t be that person because that’ll be losing my identity,

I’m tired of this uncertainty,

My mind doesn’t like me,

My head plots against me,

And my emotions fucking play with me,

I’m not even in control of my own body,

It does what it wants and then regret later.

Only thing I’m allowed to control in my body it’s my eye so I can see myself making same mistakes over and over again and my heart so I can feel the pain.

What scares me about myself is the fact that I’m ok with everything wrong about to happen, no pain no heartbreak no hurt just this numb feeling of emptiness.

I’m lost

Why’d you give me space?Why’d we fight? Now all I can think about is someone I used to know, someone i have nothing with no more, someone I can’t go back to all of a sudden I miss her, well that was just a moment of weakness. I know I can’t fully have you, You let me know you’re spoken for but relentlessly I pestered on and now we’re in the other side, I’m left wondering if I know what I’m doing, if I made a right choice, if you can love two people at the same time. I know I’m living a lie, it feels like I’m waiting for my mirage to come crashing down and the painful breeze of reality comes brining me back to this old person, someone I left behind for a time or so I thought, I don’t want to be that person any more, it feels trapped, anxiety, depression, it feels sad really really sad, it feels like i can’t breathe. The irony of it’s all is that I loathe the old person but deep deep down I miss and want him back.

Cookie:2:50a.m

I keep staring at your pictures and videos

My thoughts made you my oasis

On a regular basis

Cloudy weather siege

My comfort peach

In the same lucid dreams they’re troubled waters

Lessing bad days and stormy weathers

You’ve made me look forward to making it through the day sane as look forward to seeing you

Frozen in time before you arrived

With your fiery hug you strived

Freed me of myself no longer numb

The truth about happiness

I don’t believe that happiness is a choice, to me it’s a feeling that arises from doing things or being with someone who sees you, who doesn’t judge you at the same time tell you the truth, you don’t chose to be happy for no just reason, every action has a reason, in other to be happy you need to find what’s makes you at ease. The moment I let her go, I let my happiness go, you have to think differently to see transparent truth of happiness hidden around. Please don’t just like, also share and comment your take on the truth about happiness.